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August 02nd 2007

I've ordered the next version of Antaran's Journal and it should arrive in about two weeks. If the book turns out alright those who are interested will be able to order a book in about three weeks.

The price will increase a bit though. I'm thinking about what I could send along the book to justify its price. I won't sell it at a profit, it will cost exactly what it costs me. I don't want to be "accused" of "trying to make money" again - for whatever reasons. If anybody feels the need to support me financially, I've heard there's a paypal button to be found somewhere on this page. But it could just be one of those urban legends.

There also seems to be a new entry for IAD's Making Of. Not anything new really, I just needed to talk about it for a bit.

July 16th 2007

Largely because of your messages - which I can't thank you enough for - I've found my grip again and I'm slowly climbing back up. There will be a few updates in the next few days, but I don't want to tell you which ones. One of the things that put pressure on me was that I kept telling about project progression and then couldn't find the time and/or motivation to fulfill those promises. Even if you say you don't care, it's more of a personal thing. When I promise certain goals to myself and can't reach them, I have this feeling of failure in my head.

Therefore there won't be a lot of project status news anymore. The only indication of progress will be seen on the projects page through each project's percentage of completion. New projects will only be announced and put on the projects page when they have reached at least, say, 80% of completion. IAD is an exception, as I've already started writing the Making Of, and I will continue to contribute more entries. However, I might hold newly written entries back for a while and then upload a bunch of them at once.

The drawback of holding back project news is that I don't get instant feedback, which in case of positive feedback would make it harder in terms of acquiring motivation. On the other hand, it doesn't raise any levels of expectations on your side, thus the motivation level should be the same - if not higher because the only expectation I have to meet then is the overall quality of my projects that you are accustomed to.

The Radical Slim Shake Drink is also still available and will be updated whenever new projects are announced or released - as usual.

Now as for actual project news, the Halfquake Amen Comic is finished and the remaining twelve comics are going to be released in the next few days.

Stay dead.

July 08th 2007

No, I'm not done yet. I'm still trying to find myself because I don't know me anymore. The past few weeks were absolutely horrible. I don't know what's going on, but everything I try to create puts an enormous amount of pressure on me. Everything feels empty. I can't go on like this. It will take another while until you will be able to see and hear something from me again.

Until then, I bid you farewell... May the best things happen to you in your life.

June 15th 2007

With support from a lot of sides - for which I can't be thankful enough - I've recovered from what happened a few days ago. Still, it was good that it happened because it put me on the right track again. I needed that slap in the face to realize what I have to do and what I have to focus on. It was a slap in the face by a high speed train and it shook me up quite a bit, but I guess that's what was needed to wake me up again. Also, it made me realize just how many people are supporting me with their thoughts, and I think this alone makes everything I've done to get those people to know me absolutely worthwhile.

So, again thank you all. I don't know where I would be without you showing me that I'm at least sometimes doing something right.

I still need a break from a lot of things, as I'm not nearly as stable as I would want myself to be. I started distracting myself a bit with various stuff that my mind wanted to do, such as the new version of the IAD Sound Designer (a list of changes can be found in the IAD Making Of) and playing games like Etrian Odyssey.

As for the real life problems that caused what happened, I think I'll manage to get through it unharmed. There has been a lot of talk and discussions family-wise and I'm glad that we have persons that are going to support us in our upcoming rough times.

I realize now that the past few months I've tried to be somebody which I'm not supposed to be, and now I feel like I know my true self again. Just wait and see what that means for you.

June 12th 2007

Because of some personal problems I can't tell when the last HQA Comics will be added. I've had a serious depression attack yesterday and I hurt both of my hands, so drawing is a bit difficult. A lot of things are going to change in the next few months, and money is one of the problems I'm facing. I don't know whether I'll be able to make music as much as I was able to do in the past. Actually that counts for all projects of mine. I just don't know what to do. But I guess there's a solution for everything...




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