June 15th 2007

With support from a lot of sides - for which I can't be thankful enough - I've recovered from what happened a few days ago. Still, it was good that it happened because it put me on the right track again. I needed that slap in the face to realize what I have to do and what I have to focus on. It was a slap in the face by a high speed train and it shook me up quite a bit, but I guess that's what was needed to wake me up again. Also, it made me realize just how many people are supporting me with their thoughts, and I think this alone makes everything I've done to get those people to know me absolutely worthwhile.

So, again thank you all. I don't know where I would be without you showing me that I'm at least sometimes doing something right.

I still need a break from a lot of things, as I'm not nearly as stable as I would want myself to be. I started distracting myself a bit with various stuff that my mind wanted to do, such as the new version of the IAD Sound Designer (a list of changes can be found in the IAD Making Of) and playing games like Etrian Odyssey.

As for the real life problems that caused what happened, I think I'll manage to get through it unharmed. There has been a lot of talk and discussions family-wise and I'm glad that we have persons that are going to support us in our upcoming rough times.

I realize now that the past few months I've tried to be somebody which I'm not supposed to be, and now I feel like I know my true self again. Just wait and see what that means for you.