February 01st 2005

The first version of "I'm A Dragon" got released yesterday. I feel that I really need to go back to HQS and the HQA Comics soon, but I need to add some more stuff to IAD.

Maybe I'll take a short break from IAD (1 or 2 weeks) and continue with the HQA Comics...

Or maybe I should just delete everything and get a life.

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Sometimes I just wonder why I do all this stuff. Sometimes I just see no reason behind it, it just leads me nowhere. People are telling me that I can probably use all that stuff for job applications, but I think this stuff here is too weird for every "normal" person out there and - I'm just sick of it. I want to be in a world without having to sell my soul in order to get money to be able to buy food. Why do we have to get up when our boss yells at us? Why can't we just say, "Do it yourself." Why do we have to obey others, be the slaves of others only because we get a monthly paycheck? I want to do what I want to do and get money for it. No, I don't want money, I want to be free. I just want to do what I like and I don't want to starve. But I guess that's just not possible, that's only an illusion. We're wasting all our time here. Why are we still alive anyway? I hope someone presses the famous red button and all our problems would dissolve and rain down from the sky in the form of gray ash. I wish I could do that. Sometimes I really do.