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December 27th 2007

It seems to be a tradition, or rather a cliché, that at the end of a year people sit down for a few minutes, add up the past twelve months and look at the end results. Based on those results, resolutions are made for the new year. But twelve months won't do it in my case. Certain events around June 2007 have changed the course of my life quite a bit, and thus now I have to look back at the past five years, with 2007 being the end of an era.

2003 marked the beginning of something new. Two projects based on Halfquake Amen have started shortly after its release in September 2002: Personal Halfquake and the Halfquake Amen Comic. Initially I was filled with euphoria. However, I didn't know back then that I should've created those projects with an end in mind, as both projects were to consume a lot of my spare time for the next five years. While working on PHQ and HQA Comic updates, flash games and applications arose, sometimes out of desperation to refresh my mind a bit. Despite a lot of pressure there were even several attempts at the creation of a third installment of Halfquake, including some work on a few songs meant to be part of the HQS soundtrack - those turned out to be rather personal and later got released as a compilation called "Remains". All in all, for five years I've been constantly restless and living in the dark abyss I had created myself.

During 2003 and 2004 multiple updates for PHQ were wanted and needed, and I tried hard to continue the HQA Comic. Until I realized that I didn't throw out those updates for myself anymore, but for others. I had stopped listening to myself and just went through the motions - thinking up yet another PHQ feature and yet another HQA Comic.

In 2005 I started Antaran's Journal. I remember the moment very well. There was a blank screen in front of me, an open editor with a blinking text cursor, impatiently waiting for my fingers to work with it. In my head there was darkness, pollution, a large swamp drowning my mind, which was stretching out a hand covered in mud, trying to find something to help it climb out again. I knew that I just had to start something new. Something. Anything. I wrote three dots and the first few words.

I told myself to keep a regular update schedule of one entry per day, but I couldn't. One exception lead to the other. PHQ, the HQA Comic and the pressure of HQS were still around as well. Even though my mind had taken a deep breath, the swamp's level rose and rose.

2006 arrived quickly and showed me a different facet of life. For something I initially didn't want to do, I'm very glad now that I was forced to go through it. The same year saw the release of the game Turnament and the album Remains, both of which represented a much needed vent.

The development of PHQ ended in early 2007, the final entry of Antaran's Journal was written in April, and the HQA Comic was put to rest in July. Slowly the sky began to clear, the air was refreshed, my mind stabilized. And most importantly, I began to listen to myself once again.

In the past five years I have gained new experiences, acquired new skills, new instruments and material to work with. I have met a lot of people and made a bunch of new friends. I feel a lot more confident and motivated. I know who I am, what I need to do, what I want. I've made my plans for 2008. If all goes well, there should be three finished projects by the end of the year ahead.

Finishing three projects isn't the actual New Year's resolution though.

Keeping myself awake is.

2008, here I come.

December 07th 2007

Despite various petitions and bomb threats to stop this series, I've written Quick Movie Reviews IX. Read it quickly, before the government finds out and takes it down, and me along with it.

November 14th 2007

New images have found their way onto the server.

Loony99's SapienceLoony99's CubesTaskBeenden's HQSTaskBeenden's Road to SadismMuddasheep's Eight Lives Left

The flash games Turnament and Phabetal have finally received their own pages. Welcome home!

Taskless Sheep is doing alright, not as good as all participants would like it to be, but we're definitely getting somewhere.

I'm a Dragon is on indefinite hold for the moment, or rather it seems to be turning into something else entirely. You'll have to wait and see, as usual.

The new book is coming along nicely. I'm still attending the almost regular writing meetings with my cousin. We've met four times to write, and without her and those meetings I would've probably stopped already. I'm really glad to have this pool of motivation that I can get back to whenever I am in need of it.

Speaking about writing, I'm sure you've heard about the Writer's Guild of America Strike and the shows that are affected (Lost and Heroes, for example).

And last, but not least, I strongly recommend the anime Welcome to the NHK.

October 02nd 2007

I've compiled yet another bunch of Quick Movie Reviews (Part VIII).

September 25th 2007

I've added a bunch of new images, including the following:

by James WintersetKiddiKai's Sandism IKiddiKai's Sandism IIKowi's Portal of HellKowi's Rest in Peace
Reboot's EffectsFlo's Sadism CatTheNameless' and TaskBeenden's Halfcake RamenTheNameless' and TaskBeenden's Halfcake BunriceHalfquake Sunrise Wallpaper

Antaran's Journal can be purchased at cafepress now. I initially wanted to order it in large quantities to reduce the price and then send each book personally, but there would have been twice the amount of shipping costs, so it was kind of redundant to do the extra work. However, if you don't have a credit card you can still send me an email and order a copy of the book. The price for this book will be calculated individually, depending on where you live, naturally.

The price of Antaran's Journal on cafepress is $12.50 (€8,87). I've said in previous news that I won't add anything to the base price because there have been people "accusing" me of trying to make money, but on the other hand I've been told I'd be stupid if I won't try to make money off the things I create. So, as a compromise that will hopefully satisfy both parties and the ones who actually buy the book, I've added $1 to the base price in hope to at least get back half of what I paid for the two books I had to order to test cafepress's book creation functionality. Or you can see it as investment for the new book I'm writing on which will also need a few test orders when it's completed.




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