May 04th 2005

Wee, we seem to have a new server. Yeah. Also, I bought a soundcard yesterday and lookey, lookey, I can record stuff with my microphone again. (:

Maybe I'll get an e-guitar soon, I just have to see how much they cost and if I can afford it. Since Vino played his e-guitar to the new HQS songs, I can't stop to think about adding some "heavy metal" to the tracks. I think it is necessary. And while we are at it, real drums would be nice too. But I know only a few people who play drums - it's still a possibility. I'd give my heart and soul for real drums to play around with!

Things are weird at the moment. Still one month left until I'm sent away to serve my country for less than 150 dollars a month. Sitting in the office and coding around on homepages for me or the company I'm working for.

I mustn't look forward or I'll become depressive. So, hey, here I am, I got plenty of time, and I'm having fun, actually. Tonight I'll probably record some stuff after like 1 or 2 months without being able to record! I really like the latest song I made (it's the 10th for the HQS soundtrack already). It's slow, floating and kinda in a happy mood. It's funny, when I look back and see that my recent songs have all been brighter than the ones I did 3-4 years ago. I guess, I'm growing up, or I've found a way to cope with things. Maybe I'm becoming naive.

I've changed a lot. I don't know if I like those changes. Or maybe, I haven't changed, but rather my surroundings. Or both. Actually, when I take a close look at myself, I'm still the same kid like a few years ago, only now I have more money and I can buy stuff that I want, like the new DS or the new NIN album, without having to think when I get the next pocket money from my parents...

Well, until June 1st. Then I'll depend on the money of others again, heh.

Whatever... Money ain't a good thing, I guess, the more you have the less worth are the things you already own. My boss for example, always driving the latest cars, and the newest technologies are a must. Recently he just dropped his laptop on the floor because he was so frustrated. How can a laptop be like a tower of lego for a little kid? It's the lost value, I guess. I also discovered, that the more positive words you receive about your works, the less they are worth and the more you need/want to hear.

It's like I said to an old friend of mine: Don't flatter me because I can't stand it.